Tuesday, November 23, 2010

There are the Ups and Downs, the Good and Bad...Ce La Vie

So a lot has changed since Isabella was born. We moved back to Lapeer because our money situation got messed up so this way we can pay for our stay and still save! Yay!
Things are pretty stressful right now but at least we have each other and the baby to keep our spirits up!
She is so healthy and doing wonderfully. She is developing intellectually and motor skills wise so great! We are so proud of her! She loves doing tummy time and it is so amazing seeing her change day to day. I just don't understand how people can get so angry with their babies/kids. I see so many posts lately with Moms saying how irritating and annoying their babies are and its just ridiculous! I'm so sick of it! Suck it up ladies, we all made our choices and its just not right to take it out on your kids. I understand certain things about being a mom is hard, trust me, but just the phrasing of calling your kid a "pain in the butt", etc. really peeves me!!! Grow up! Plus half these girls don't even have their kids with them on a daily basis, their family is raising them and I hate to say it but I agree with all that crap about how those 16 and Pregnant shows are encouraging little teenagers to get pregnant and its making the epidemic rise! I do not condone this whatsoever.
I apologize if anyone reads this and is offended, it is not directed at anyone in particular, I'm just irritated with society. Just watch that show and you will see how ill-equipped these kids are to be having kids. They don't realize all that comes with Mommyhood. I feel bad for them and yet I don't at the same time.
Just enjoy your time with your kids and know that the hard times don't last forever, and enjoy the rewards you get when your kids first smile or say Mom/Dad or "I love you" for the first time. It's all worth it!
Again I apologize if anyone thinks this is about them, its not.

Friday, September 10, 2010

Isabella Jewel Has Arrived!





The contractions had been 5 minutes apart for about a week before it hit me full on! Sunday evening after Doug had been home for just a few minutes from work, the back labor got super intense. I just took deep breaths and finished up the dishes. Then while he was on his walk they hit big time and things began to happen to let me know it was time for Isabella to make her appearance.
We called my mom and she flew down the highway at 90mph to come take us to Genesys Hospital for baby time!!!
We got admitted around midnight and at that point my contractions were 3 minutes apart and coming on strong. Within the first hour of being there I was contracting every 2 1/2 minutes and that continued for 9 hours before I was prepped for my C-Section.
They came in at 8:10am to tell me that at 8:30am I was going in to the OR to get the baby out and meet our precious princess for the first time.
The following 20 minutes were so surreal that even as I waddled and shuffled down the hall to the OR I was in a fog and trying to imagine what she would look like.
I hopped up on the cold hard table to receive my spinal epidural and after the 6th attempt they got it in and I was numb and ready to rock'n'roll.
Doug came in and I was all ready to hold her for the first time and kiss her sweet face.
As soon as they told us it'd be just another minute, we both began to cry in anticipation of seeing her and hearing her cry as she began her life with us outside of the womb.
She looked absolutely perfect!!! We could not ask for a more beautiful baby girl!
She is almost one month old now and getting so big so fast-almost overnight.

<3 Isabella Jewel McLeod was born August 16, 2010 at 9:22am. She weighed 7 lbs 14 oz and 21 inches long! <3

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Baby Bell Arrives in 6 Days!!!!

39 weeks today! I cannot believe it!!! Isabella is around 7 lbs now or more and estimated at 20ish inches! She is big baby huh?
We are so so so excited right now! Throughout each day I find myself thinking about next Friday and getting to finally meet our precious baby girl and I just sob! Happy tears, of course, and I just cannot fathom how beautiful she will be but I know she will be!
Every night Doug and I talk about our hopes and fears and all the "little" things we need to think about in the future regarding our daughter and we always end up tearing up and smiling while looking at each other when we think about how amazing this journey has been and how phase 1 is over in less than a week!
I honestly do not even know what else to say, I am getting teary eyed just thinking about all of it.
Just think, as of Friday August 20th around 11 am Isabella Jewel McLeod will be here in our arms and soon enough yours when you meet her!!!

Saturday, August 7, 2010

Our Humble Adobe is Ready Baby

38 weeks today!!!
We cannot believe our precious baby girl will be here in less than 2 weeks!
They scheduled my C-Section for August 20th at 10:30am, but last time they checked me as in a few days ago, I was 1 cm dilated and 70% effaced....So I am thinking they might move my date closer so that she is safely delivered before I go into labor, but who knows? Plus, my hemorrhage in my eye re-bled this week due to coughing. Seriously? I am freaked out about coughing and sneezing and all the normal human things now....
We are all moved into our little apartment and we love it! The nursery is almost complete. I want to stencil something above her crib and the closet to finish the decorating part and then the last few pieces will be here soon enough.
Doug and I could not be happier with how everything is turning out! We are quite the good team at accomplishing everything at home and getting ready for our newest addition to the McLeod family.
I cannot wait to welcome her into our arms and family finally. Baby Girl---Hurry up in there! We're waiting. <3

Friday, July 30, 2010

Our Adventure

Tomorrow I officially end my 37th week and begin the 38th week! Baby Bell is about 6 1/2 lbs now!!! Big baby! I can totally concur she is at least that big.
So, no news still on her official arrival date. But I guess my doctor sent over all the necessary paperwork to my insurance company and once they approve the C-Section (knowing its medical reasons and not just opting for one) and give my Dr. the authorization number then....we will be told the date and time for Baby Bell's birth-date! Doug and I and our families are itching to find out!!!! Seeing how it's after 5:30pm on Friday then I guess we will most likely find out on Monday at our next check up.
Another adventure of ours is the big move! This Sunday, Aug 1 we are moving to our own little apartment for out little family to start out together! I am pretty proud of how well we've gotten almost everything packed and all our plans are set and ready for us to carry out! Pretty much everything is packed and loaded in the van, obviously the daily necessities are still in our room and then the crib will get loaded up tomorrow and I think the futon tomorrow as well.
And yet another adventure is for my lovely hubby, Doug, he has an interview on Sunday and I'm so excited for him and am trying to make sure he is calm and feels ready for it so that they see how wonderful and what a great asset he'd be to their company! Keep him in your prayers!!!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

It's the Final Countdown!!!

So I am in the middle of my 35th week--well actually on Saturday (in 2 days) I will have finished my 35th week and begin my 36th week! Can you believe it? Our baby girl will be here in less than 4 weeks!
Everyday the anxiety (good anxiety, not bad) is growing and our impatience to hold her and see this little precious being that is beating me up so viciously!
There has been a slight change in plans as to how she will be delivered. It is now what we originally thought or expected, but Mom and Baby's health is what is important now. About a month ago, I was nauseous (go figure, pregnant woman sick to her stomach right?) and got sick. From "bearing down" during that I ended up causing a massive boat shaped hemorrhage between the retina and eye ball and apparently blew a blood vessel as well. According to my eye doctor it was "oozing, gushing, squirting, etc"--exactly what I want to hear at that moment, you know?
But as a result of this-which plenty of pregnant women have this happen to them--I will have to have a scheduled C-Section for Baby Isabella's birth.
Honestly, at first we both cried and were super bummed out, but being the amazing team we are we both quickly began listing off the positives about this situation to make the best of it. I mean, really, either way we get to have our baby girl right? Either way she is healthy and perfect? We find out on Monday July 19th what the scheduled date is and cannot wait.
We are going to install the car seat this weekend and then pretty much be as ready as we can be for her arrival. I think I might wash her onsies again in the next 2 weeks and I'm sure I'll continue to "nest" by uber cleaning the room and making sure everything is as we want it.
It's really great to get to go through all of this with Doug. I love him so much and everyday when we talk about how fears and hopes as parents I realize what an amazing Dad he already is. He sings to her everyday still and talks and helps me out so much more than I could hope for. I can't imagine having to rub someones back and feet as much as he does for me just so I can have a few minutes of relaxation and comfort amongst the lovely symptoms of your last few weeks!
We know this will be the biggest adventure of our life together so far, but we have each other to lean on and the best support system of a family. I'm very lucky to have such a loving and supportive husband who I love so very, very much!
***I cannot believe Baby Belle is around 6 lbs and 19 inches long!!!! Whoa!!!***

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Hiccup..Hiccup..Hiccup

My wee little baby girl is hiccuping right now..so cute!!!!

I am 31 weeks today! We cannot believe that in an estimated 9 weeks Isabella will be born! Honestly, it makes me cry everytime I think about it. I cannot wait to meet her and hold her in my arms and look into her beautiful eyes. It's so overwhelming to think about at times-like there's so much to do in such little time. Although I've heard most moms feel that way before their kids are born.

The shower went great! We got so much stuff that we needed and are still trying to find space for it all! We just have to rearrange a little and then it will be perfect!
Thank you to everyone who came and were so kind and generous to Isabella! <3

I have such mixed emotions right now. I really want her out of my belly so I can hold her and see her finally, but at the same time I fear not being able to protect her enough. Right now she's in me and I can protect her and keep her safe so much easier. I want her to be happy and know how much she is loved always! To never feel pain or suffer-even though I know that is not possible to prevent that sometimes. That's life.

The night before our wedding my Mom gave me all the letter she's written to me since I was born. I cried so hard! I was/am her baby girl and now I'm having a baby girl. The amount of love she felt for me even then is so amazing because I feel it already for Isabella. To see the words she wrote throughout the years breaks my heart in good and bad ways. To hear how I hurt her as a young woman in ways that at the time I couldn't fathom and I know that it may happen to me with my baby girl. I want Isabella to be my best friend as I have been with my Mom.
Lets just keep hoping and praying for a healthy delivery for baby and I!!!!

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Rockaby Baby In....My Swollen Belly

Baby Bella is a perfectly healthy baby still-had my 7 month check up today! All is well in baby land!
I am 29 weeks and 5 days---She'll be here in about 10 weeks!! Crazy!
The crib looks great-thanks to Grandma Pederson! And our crib mattress looks great in the crib-thanks to Mom McLeod (Doug's Mom)!!
All that's missing for the crib is the crib sheets and bumpers and...of course Isabella who will make it complete!
This is just the photo from the website-we haven't taken any official photos of ours yet until we have like the sheets, etc...And this is not the bedding or theme for Baby Bella, but you can still see the crib!

I feel bad for her because I can feel how she is running out of room. She takes up almost the whole uterine cavity so now when I feel her in there it's not just little kicks and punches, it's her elbows and knees as she tries to get comfortable. Cute!!!
She is approximately 17 inches long and almost 3 whole lbs!!!! Our baby girl is getting so big already!
Yesterday I counted and I saw on 4 separate occasions my belly jump from her in there doing in dance routine! It was amazing! And I wasn't even staring at my belly-I was looking at something and it caught my eye.
The baby shower is 3 days away and I cannot wait! I'm sure I'll spend the day(s) after washing all her tiny clothes and making room for all her little things.
Today we go to our first "meet'n'greet" with a potential pediatrician for baby Bella. I got a bunch of questions online to ask and added a few of my own-just want to make sure Doug and I feel comfortable and confident with our choice.
He's been great as I expand outwards! ( I feel like a beached whale at times...)
He always offers to get me something to eat or cook for me. He did the laundry last weekend-I helped, I had to show him how to do it right-and made the bed from scratch last weekend too! And it's really adorable and makes me want to tear up when I see him gaze over into the crib looking down in it and I assume imagining our little girl sleeping so sweetly in there.
He's going to be an amazing father and if I am 1/2 of how amazing my mom was, baby Bella will in great hands!

Friday, May 28, 2010

Tinkle, Tinkle, Little Star..Oh wait, That's Me Every 20 Minutes!

So I am 7 months pregnant now!! Yay for Baby Isabella and Me! We made it this far and are in our last trimester = 12 weeks or less and she will be here..well she's here now, but then she'll be out of me and in our arms!
The sweltering and super humid summer months have begun as of this past week. Which is good for little kids playing in the yard and running through sprinklers and slip'n'slides, but for a 7 month pregnant lady--not so good! Air conditioning is definitely a God-send!
She is so active and I love when I massage her and talk/sing to her while massaging and she kicks when I stop for a second to sip some water or flip a page in the book I'm reading--so cute!
I read that she is about 2 1/2 lbs and approximately 16 inches long! Can you believe that? My little pearl in the first ultrasound is huge and still growing! Keep it up my little Star! Doctors say that at this point she can dream and even dream about me-her Mommy! How cute?
It's the final countdown....

Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Bump Bump Bump..In the Night

She's my little night owl! The heat has proven to be my biggest enemy of sleep, but I think my little Belle is trying to win that contest. I totally prefer her over the sweltering heat waves I feel. As I near the beginning of my 3rd trimester, ( in 4 days I will be 28 weeks-wowza!!!) my excitement and anxiousness increases with leaps and bounds-like she does in the little crib I made for her in my womb.
Doug and I talk daily about how we cannot wait to meet her and kiss her little fingers and toes. It makes me so happy to see his face light up with such joy and amazement when he talks to my belly and rubs it and feels her react to him. She always kicks for him and I know she's already aware we are her mommy and daddy and we love her more than ourselves. It's like she is letting us know "Hey Mum/Dad! I hear/feel you and I love you too!! Now feed me again!"
The crib should be arriving in a couple days and we cannot wait to put it together. Mostly me due to the "nesting" phase arriving. I organize and clean the room all the time in preparation. But once the Baby Shower comes and goes-I will be plenty busy with her little teeny weeny itsy baby clothes and toys/gifts.
Mmmm...I am going to go get a freeze pop!!!

Sunday, May 23, 2010

Rollin On the River of Amniotic Fluid

As silly as it sounds, that's how it feels right now with Isabella in my belly!
She is moving and moving all the time! Mostly at night..of course. But this evening-granted it is 11pm- she is going all out! It feels like an all out dance marathon, but its good because it means she's healthy and strong! Yes, it causes extra bouts of heartburn and an extra 5 visits to the bathroom an hour, but it's sooooo worth it! It warms my heart with every "little" punch, kick, head butt, or full on body slam that she does in there. It makes me smile and feel filled with so much love.
Doug and I were blessed enough to have our Grandma Pederson buy our baby shower gift today-3 weeks before the big party!!!- a crib for Isabella! It's beautiful and perfect! And yes, I sat there looking at the computer screen for a good 35 minutes debating between cherry or coffee stained..Seriously? How lame do I feel now??? But at last I decided on coffee stained and its a 4-in-1 "sleigh" crib and we love it. Doug said he loved all the pictures I showed him, so all the pressure was on me...hee hee huu..hee hee huu... Totally kidding-but for real it was stressful but I am happy with our choice and I hope it looks just as great with the bedding we picked out in reality as it does in my head! I have a feeling Isabella won't care as much at first as much as I will. I want something just a smidgen as beautiful as I know she is for her to sleep in. Well I should try to take some more Tums and nibble some crackers or something before I knit. I want to knit until I fall asleep tonight!
Yay my Mum is coming out to see me in 2 days and I cannot wait for her to feel her little grandbaby kicking away!!!

Friday, May 21, 2010

27 Weeks

So this is my first blog on entry on here and yes, it is a little late in the "journey"--but hey, better late than never right?
Doug and I are celebrating our 2 month anniversary next week and next week I will enter in my 3rd trimester!!! Can you believe it? Baby Isabella Jewel will be arriving in approximately 13 weeks as of today. We are so so excited! Yes, I'm not overly enthused about the pain I may experience during her journey to the "outside" world, but the afterwards...oh yeah!!!! We can finally meet our little acrobat in my belly. I can hold her for the first time and look into her beautiful little eyes and kiss her and fall in love with her all over again.
I love her so much already! Lately, when I see anything on TV or read anything about babies, pregnancy, birth, etc. I tear up-even with commercials. And yesterday on our way to Kroger, we heard "All American Girl" by Carrie Underwood--yes, I cried! Sometimes just feeling her kicking and punching and now having her little hiccups makes me get misty eyed thinking about her and how she is our baby girl for all of time. Nobody can say that about our Isabella.
We just found out that my sister-in-law, Meredith, is having a baby girl too! Penelope Mae-cute! It's weird for me to think of my big brother being a daddy, but I know he'll be great at it. And Meredith is due to deliver Penny about 8 weeks after Isabella-obviously we are on the babies time schedule- but that means the girls will be super close in age!
Alright, I want some more of that Cranberry-Apple Bread with cream cheese right now....yum yum!!!